TTC with PCOS

everyday they're shuffling...really they are!

2011-11-03T12:55:00.000-07:00

so i haven't posted anything new on luch and one of his thing is shuffling. he shuffles every day!! he's a big LMFAO fan, you should see him do the wiggle wiggle lol. here is luch and elise shuffling. this was awhile ago when he still had his curls and his hair all up in his face.

enjoy :)

Epic Fail!

2011-10-28T18:18:00.000-07:00

well af showed up wednesday night. this was an epic fail! so bummed. well i guess i'll be in the search of my bbt this weekend. now if i can only remember which box i put it in and where in the storage it's at. ugh...i hate going to the storage!

2 ww

2011-10-26T05:43:00.000-07:00

So I'm still charting and looks like i could be 14 DPO. Charting without temps is hard, at least for me. I don't get an acurate chart of when I O'd so trying to figure it out is kind of frustrating. I'm thinking if this month isn't it then I will begin to take my temp again. We've been BDing like crazy, but the last few cycles has been a BFN. I'm beginning to feel a bit disappointed. Disappointed because this can probably take another 3 yrs. The first year that luch was born we avoid it and then the beginning of the 2nd year we were like let's not avoid and let's see how it plays out, but nothing. Now we're on a mission and still nothing...ugh not going so good. I can only be positive. I wish I could be those women who just get pregnant just by being looked at lol.

I've been having some cramping on and off since last week. boobies are tender, but this could be because I'm not nursing much as before. Tired, but it's because I wake up at 4 am everyday to get my oldest son up for school. I make lunch for everyone and I sit in front of this computer, so I blame this on myself. Today I'm going to stop by the .99 store and pick up a HPT and see if it will be 1 line or 2 lines tomorrow.

charting again

2011-07-05T15:33:00.000-07:00

6 months after delivering luch af became a regular in my life. every month she's on time maybe a few days late, but never misses a month. i know most women hate af, but i have to say, i'm happy with af. it's like for the first time in years my body is doing something right. now, i'm not sure how conceiving another baby will help, but i'm hoping it won't take 3 yrs.
i'm going to get into the whole charting thing again, but i can't let it take over my life. charting was serious business for me before luch came along. the hours i spent analyzing my chart was ridiculous. i was OBSESSED! i think this time around i might just go easy. i will not take my temps for now and see how it will go with just charting af and of course all the other ovulation signs.

i'm really excited! :)

hey there....

2011-06-30T09:26:00.000-07:00

it's been almost a year since i have last updated my blog...shame on me!! it's been crazy between work, home and kids. i have become an old lady, i wake up super early, fall asleep where ever i sit, (doing the head nodding thing) and in bed by 8 p.m. i have to say that luch takes a lot of my sleep away. he's not a sleep through the night kind of kid. he's now 25 months old and still wakes up 2-3 times a night to nurse. yes, we're still nursing and i'm pretty amazed at myself for going this long. luch does have his good nights, once a week maaaybe twice a week where he'll wake up only once. i have thought about weening, but it's a lot harder than i thought. i've tried to not nurse him to sleep, but he cries and his face is just so sad...it breaks my heart. he'll lay his head on my check sign and he'll say "mommy, milk, milk this side" and he'll lay down in between the hub and i and smiles. that there gets me all the time and the whole weening process gets put on hold.

take a look at my luch. so different from the last pic i have posted. he now has long beautiful curls and i'm avoiding the whole "when are you cutting his hair?" question. i love love his hair and really don't want to cut it off!! this pic was taken on his 2nd birthday at the happiest place on earth, disneyland.

Since i posted a disneyland pic i might as well tell you about our first trip with luch. well, at first he was so afraid of every single ride we got him on, but towards the end of the night he started to enjoy it. he was having a ball on all the kiddie rides there and at california adventure. the best part was when luch got to meet mickey mouse. he's a big fan and loves to sing the mickey mouse club house song. when we got inside the house he was happy and calling out for mickey up until he was face to face with him. he panicked and cried, but still managed to say hi to him. while crying he shook mickey's hand, said "bye bye ickey" and threw him a kiss. that right there was the best moment, for me at least. it was like watching him overcome his fear and let me tell you luch has plenty. the next day all he talked about was mickey. we bought him a mickey mouse and he carried that with him for a week.

Aside from luch turning 2 this year my oldest son just accomplished his biggest milestone, he graduated from high school last week. it was a bittersweet moment for me, but i'm so very proud of him! now the next step is college. he'll be starting in less than 2 wks and is looking forward to the career he has been so wanting to learn, automotive technician.

as for my pretty girl, she will be entering 5th grade in sept. although she still has a couple more years in elementary, i'm just not ready for her to be a teenager. she's so lovable and sweet right now. teenagers tend to go through "teenage mood swings" lol.

hopefully i will be able to keep up with my blog. there has been so many times where i have so much to say and want to blog about, but then i get busy with something at work or home and i lose all energy. i really want to go back to blogging especially since we've have decided to have another child. :) so let the charting beginning, but not obsessively this time.

Going Private

2010-07-16T09:31:00.001-07:00

I will be going private due to too much spam comments. Please please for those that read my blog request an invitation so i can add you.

Comment Spam

2010-07-14T11:44:00.000-07:00

I'm getting a lot!! Anyone know how to element these ANNOYING PEOPLE?

LC Stuffing His Face

2010-06-30T13:56:00.000-07:00

Hello I haven't posted anything on LC in such a long time. I have so much to say, but for now enjoy this little video of LC stuffing his face with peaches last night.

Happy Birthday!!

2010-05-21T11:04:00.000-07:00

Awwww.... my baby is officially a toddler as of yesterday. 365 days ago I held this beautiful baby boy and he completely took my breathe away.

One year later nothing has changed. This little guy still takes my breathe away.

I love you so very much papasito!! As much as I dreaded this day I'm happy that you're 1 year old, happy and most importantly healthy. Looking forward to another year as you become your own little person more each day.

mamma, pappa, brother & sister love you always!

All Done with Holy Sacraments

2010-05-03T12:43:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that all 3 of my kids did their holy sacraments within 3 months from each other. It started with LC's baptism in Feb.

Then, son's confirmation in Apr. We look a little funny because we were caught off guard.

Finally, daughter's first communion yesterday. There's E receive her first holy eucharist.

With all these parties we are now broke and need to apply for a loan lol.

Almost 1 Year

2010-05-01T09:34:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that a year has gone by so quickly. It felt like just yesterday I found out I was pregnant. Then, 1 year ago yesterday I went on maternity leave and started counting the days for LC's arrival. I wish I could just freeze time so I can enjoy him a bit longer as an infant.

This year has brought so much joy and happiness just watching him grow. With my children so far apart I forgot how sweet it is to have a baby. This time around I've been very fortunate to bf this long. We're 3 weeks away from reaching our goal. Now that it's quickly approaching I have decided to continue with extend bfing. I enjoy our time, our bonding. And besides, I can continue giving him all the nutrients that he needs.

LC has now been taking a few quick steps when I let go. He's just so eager to walk. He prefers walking around the house now than crawling. We hold him by one hand and he's on the go. He is now throwing fish kisses to us and cracks up when we say awwww thank you LC.

LC loves his veggies especially broccoli. He prefers to eat on his own which I love to see.

There's something about babies feeding themselves that makes it so cute and adorable. He eats a variety of foods, he even likes salmon. I use to feed him before the rest of us, but now I make an effort to cook easy and fast meals and that are good for LC to eat with us. He loves the family time we have around the table.

In Feb. we baptized LC. This is big brother giving him a blessing. One by one family and friends

came up to LC to give him a blessing. It was really nice to see everyone come up and do their own little thing in blessing him. I think LC was tripping out more than anything.

Anyways, what a fun year. Now I have to start planning his birthday party. :)

The Many Things LC Can Do

2010-04-14T16:08:00.000-07:00

Since my last post about LC had learned how to pull himself up to a standing position. Well, little munchkin is now getting comfortable letting go and standing for a few second. I'm not ready for him to start walking. I can barely keep up with him crawling all over the house. LC is such a babbler. He babbles so much that we swear that some of his words are real words. I know of a fact that he's saying "what's that?", but "that" comes out first. When he's saying "that" he points and with his middle finger too lol. When he's trying to reach for something he wants he says "up". LC loves loves the phone. Anything that might look like a phone he'll grab and hold it up to his ear and starts to talk and laugh. Hmmmm...wonder where he gets that from. LC loves to look at himself in the mirror and watch himself crack up doing it. He's is starting to discover body parts which is so cute. Since we co-sleep most of the times, one morning he woke up and started to poke my nose, poke my eyes and pull my lips. He does that to us when we are face to face with him. We have been teaching him since he started doing this. Another body part he has discover is his penis. Let's see, oh thanks to big brother and sister, LC now enjoys going into an elevator. As soon as we go in he starts to giggle and get excited. As it starts to go up or down he'll squeal and laugh. Stopping is much more hilarious. People laugh when they see him act this way. LC is a riot. He's doing so much and so fast. I'm not ready, I'm not ready for LC to turn 1 next month. I get teary eyed when I start to think next month he'll become a toddler. Hubby and son are looking forward to all the fun things, but daughter and I aren't. We want LC to be a baby for a much longer time, maybe forever. Oh well it's part of life and we all have to grow up someday, including me. :)

LC 10 months 3 weeks

Pillowcase Dress Giveaway!

2010-03-08T12:14:00.000-08:00

A fellow blogger is giving away a pillowcase dress. She has started up her own little handmade dresses and accessories store on Esty and now has started a blog. You can go to Gia Rose Designs to enter to win a very cute pillowcase dress. Hurry the giveaway ends March 16th. Good luck!

Look What I Can Do...

2010-02-12T12:18:00.000-08:00

LC has been doing a lot of things on his own lately. Last night I saw him do this.

Then, I was shocked to see him like this

My heart nearly jumped out of my chest!! I couldn't believe that he did it!!

He really wanted that red bag on my dresser. I guess when you really want something you're going to try your hardest to get it.

Check Out LC.

2010-02-08T06:41:00.000-08:00

I've mentioned before that LC was in his beginning stages of crawling, well check him out. The end of the video LC almost gave up.

Enjoy!

I've Been MIA...Sorry.

2010-01-27T12:08:00.000-08:00

It's been a long while since I've posted anything about LC. Since returning to work my computer was acting up. While I was gone someone used my computer ( my annoying co-working) and my computer got a pretty bad virus. IT had to fix the problem and by doing so it wasn't allowing me to view any blogs or post. Well 4 months later my computer is still acting up, but he did something and I can blog again. I don't blog from home because I only have 2 hrs to feed the family, do homework with the daughter, family time and then put LC to sleep at 8 pm. Then get LC's stuff ready for the next day and by the time I'm done I'm so tired and I go to sleep.

Well anyways, LC has grown so much within the last few months. He has 4 teeth, he rolls all over the place, he sits and just recently has been pushing himself up to a sitting position. He's now trying to crawl and it's so darn cute. He's such a happy baby. He loves his brother and sister so much. We can't pass by their room without LC stretching his neck and trying to hold onto the doorway to yell at them. LC is also enjoy his grandparent's company. Especially with nonno. They play "who can yell louder". This is something I want to catch on video because it makes me laugh so much and the look on his nonno's face is priceless.
LC eats like a pig! We feed him baby food, but he's much interested in what is on our plates so we give him a little bit.
LC has been having some issues with sleeping in his crib and staying asleep. I think it's partically our fault because we started to keep him in our bed for few hours after he has fallen asleep. A couple of hours go by and then he wakes up and right back into our bed. I don't mind, but both hubby and LC are crazy sleepers. It's been 2 months now that he's been like this. Dr talked to me about sleep training. We're suppose to let him cry before comforting him, but it's kind of hard when his cries echos throughout the house and wakes everyone up. So, for the meanwhile he'll be in between us.

Here's LC a couple of weeks ago.

This was taken last month.

We got a break through...

2009-11-11T08:41:00.001-08:00

...the bottom gums that is. LC got his first tooth last Friday. I was so excited to be the one to discover it. The week before he was so fussy that I just knew that he was teething. It looks like he will be having another one break through soon.

My baby is growing so fast.

LC's First Halloween

2009-11-06T11:47:00.000-08:00

Look at how cute this Cowardly Lion looks. First Halloween with LC was so much fun!! We had good weather and he stayed up until 10 p.m. without getting fussy.

This is my vampire and her cousins, Tinker Bell & Optimist Prime. She was so excited be a vimpire, since it's the new thing now and days.

Son wasn't dressed, but he did for school. Son and his friends all dressed up as the guys from Ghostbuster. They entered a contest and everything, sorry no pics. :(

Overall, we had a fun night trick or treating with the kids.

LC's Scary Noises

2009-11-02T15:37:00.000-08:00

Look Who Turned 5 Months This Week

2009-10-23T09:37:00.001-07:00

My little man!!! He's so big and so much fun. He has become a pro at rolling around everywhere I put him. We're working on sitting up longer, but once he sees his feet he goes at them. He goes crazy when he sees me after a long day without me. He laughs uncontrollably and get this, he makes scary noises. Yes you heard me right, scary noises! It's so freakin' cute. I have a short video of him growling I'll post it this weekend.
My chunky monkey was also featured baby of the day on Fox 11 morning news a few weeks ago, twice.
LC got his 20 seconds of fame.

4 Months Today

2009-09-20T23:04:00.000-07:00

Yes LC has turned yet another month!! I ask myself where is the time going? It was just like yesterday LC was born and he looked like this

and look at him now

he's a skater boy! Now that I'm back to work I feel like it's going to go by even faster. I just hope that I don't miss too much of his first time happenings. Last Sat I got to witness him turning from his tummy to his back. R and me were so freaking excited. Then today I got to witness him turning from his back to his tummy. So far I'm not missing any "first times", yet. Last week I also started him with a tiny bit of Rice cereal. At first I thought he was going to dislike it, but no. Not once did he push out the cereal, on the other hand he slurped it. We were amazed at how much he liked it.

He's also trying to sit on his own. When we have him in a laying down position in our arms he is always pulling himself up for us to sit him up. He HAS to up because he wants to know what's going on around him at all times. I tried to sit him up on his own and he did good for a few seconds. After that he was going forward or to the sides. Lastly, picking him up after work is such a joy. He gets so happy and gives me a big smile. He kicks and bounces in his bouncer waiting for me to pick him up. LC is so hilarious!! That is what I look forward to everyday.

Back To Work!

2009-09-12T09:41:00.000-07:00

After having almost 20 weeks off this was the day I was dreading, going back to work. I began to feel the anxiety sinced last month because I couldn't believe that my time with LC was coming to an end.

Last month I began to look around for daycare centers, but in the area I needed LC to be was inpossible. I was only able to find a whole lot of home daycare centers. I looked at every single one in the area and not one I felt comfortable with. At the end I decided to leave LC with a niece who decided to be a SAHM. So as my first day of work was quickly approaching, I started to feel so sad. I cried and cried. Hubby assured me that he will be o.k. and I will be o.k. On Tuesday I ended up getting to work late because I was having a really hard time leaving him. My sister in law happened to be off from work so she was there to assist her daughter in law with LC. There was no sense to even wear make up because it all came off within a half hour. I couldn't stop crying. My sister thought it was funny, but whatever.

I was able to get over it and each day was better, long, but better. I always looked forward to coming home to my family, but this time we have LC in the picture. Since I'm still BFing him it's our catching up time.

LC is a thumb sucker since day one. I think it's so cute!

A Quick Post

2009-08-31T08:22:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted an entry in awhile, so much as been going on. First, LC is now 3 months and 11 days old.

Before our trip my mom got to meet LC a week before. She needed to come into L.A. for a few days, but it was a bittersweet visit though. But before I get to that part here's a little on our trip.

Our plan ride was 3 hours long and LC was so super good going and coming back. The only bad thing was that we had a 4 hour delay in L.A. and a 1 hour delay in Arkansas. Despite all that LC didn't loose his cool. Here's daddy and LC when we arrived in AR.

It was kind of muggy over there, but we had fun. This is us in Eureka Springs, AR. There's my

mom with LC, stepdad, brothers. My son is the one standing right next to me with the long hair (he's a skater and shirt is a skating co. name in case you were wondering why he's wearing a shirt that says Girl) and my daughter is the one on top.

We did some sight seeing, but not too much. Overall, we enjoyed our short time in Arkansas. It's so peaceful, but then again anywhere out of L.A. is peaceful.

So now to the bittersweet part of this entry. The week of our trip I was suppose to bring one more person with me and that was my aunt. Well, unfortanately, she got sick a week before and was hospitalized with pneumonia. The very next day she went into a cardiac arrest and it took a team 8 mins to revive her. She was put on a ventilator and she had suffered some brain damage. On Tuesday her dr said that she couldn't do anymore for her and that all she could do was to make her comfortable. Well, on Thursday my sweet aunt passed away from a couple of infections and pneumonia. She was 45 years old and this woman was a Leukemia survior. 22 years of being cancer free, but suffered with so many other health complications, some that almost took her life. She was always in the hospital, but she fought her way out every single time. She was a true fighter.

She leaves behind 2 adult daughters and 3 grandchildren whom she loved dearly.

We're helping them with everything so they can focus on their children. Tomorrow is the viewing and Wed. is the burial. She will be laid to rest right next to my grandmother.

I'm going to miss her so much. I'm going to miss her phone calls checking up on us especially on LC whom she adored.

She's now in a better place and smiling down on us. She's probably jumping with joy because she doesn't need her wheelchair anymore. She'll be missed tremendously.

2 Months Old

2009-07-22T10:24:00.000-07:00

Look at how big my little man is. I can't believe how fast he has grown. I'm still EBFing and we're on a good schedule. Luciano is laughing out loud now and it's sounds so cute. Luciano is such a mama's boy, but I don't mind, I like it. :) Big brother and sister love him to death and they're super overprotective of him.

Next month Luciano will be meeting his grandma (my mom) for the first time. We will be flying out to Arkansas for a week to spend some time with my mom and family. I'm so excited.

Then, in Sept. Luciano will also be meeting his nonno & nonna (Rick's parents) for the first time. My in-laws are coming back, but maybe only for a few months though.

I'm so happy things couldn't be any perfect for us!

6 Wks Later and a Birth Story

2009-07-03T12:16:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted an entry since May, wow. I know that this is very late, but I wanted to at least post my birth story for anyone who was interested.

Since May 17th I was feeling some contractions about 20-30 mins apart, but they really didn't kick in until Tuesday. May 19th they were 15-20 mins then on the 20th about 1ish am they became stronger and I began to time them with Contraction Master. Around 3 am they were 8-10 mins apart.

That morning I had a scheduled NST and I was hoping by the time I showed up I would have shown some progress. Sadly, there wasn't. I wasn't dialated and my contractions had completely stopped. I couldn't believe it. The dr however stripped my membranes to speed up the process and advised me to do some walking and to go to L&D around 4 p.m. if my contractions come back and are timeable. Sure enough my contractions came back once we got home so hubby decided to not go to work and stay with me. About a couple of hours later my SIL called and asked if I wanted to go with her to Target. Since I needed to walk I said yes. Before heading to Target we went to Pinochio Restaurant to look around. Her granddaughter's baptism was coming up and she needed to find a restaurant to hold the reception in.

Anyways, walking around did make my contractions come on stronger. We then headed to the Taget at the Glendale Galleria. She decided to park on the other end of the mall. By 3 p.m. I thought I was going to pass out. People looking at me and wondering if I needed any help. It was quite funny actually. Every 10 mins I had to stop and grab my back and hold the bottom of my stomach. After 4 hours we headed to her house and we ate an early dinner. Hubby met me there and we then headed to L&D. After getting there I got wheeled upstairs and got hooked up immediately. After about 45 mins I was told that I was only 1 to 2 cm and that I wasn't ready. The dr suggested to go back home and wait it out for another few hours. Since I wasn't in the mood to go home I refused and asked for another alternative. She then told me to walk the hallways for an hour, so I did. Since I was so anixous I started to do skwats and other things to get my cervix to open up quicker. By then my contractions were every 5 mins, but not good enough for L&D. After the hour we went back in and I was 3 cm, but still not ready to be admitted. They did however kept in triage for about an hour because my contractions were coming every 2-3 mins. About 9:45 p.m. I felt a gush and I knew then that my water had broken. I told hubby to go and tell the nurse. After she checked me with the swab that turns blue she then started the admission. I was so happy! By then my contractions were now one after another. So close that by the time I caught my breath I had another one coming. About 1/2 hr later into the admission process I started to feel a lot of pressure. I kept telling the nurse that but all she was able to tell me was to wait that we were almost finished. So, after all that she checked me and said that I was 8 cm and was rushed to the delivery room. Well after being checked again by another nurse I was only 6 cm. I was so mad to find that the other nurse was wrong. It was almost 11 p.m. when I just couldn't handle the pain anymore. I couldn't breath right and I needed to push really bad. After doing my best to go all natural I gave in and got an epi at 11:10 p.m. I've never had an epi and I was so terrified, so terrified that for almost 10 mins during the process I had forgotten about my contractions. Once the epi was in I was still having bad contractions and they gave me another dose. After getting some relief a nurse emptied my bladder and checked me again and guess what...I was complete!! I was excited, but so bummed at the same time because if I had held out a bit longer I would have gone all the way.

After 3 sets of pushing LC made his grand entrance and he was placed on my chest all hot and gooey.

Now 6 weeks later he is so much different than the day he was born. He is smiling and making baby sounds now. The best part for me is seeing LC smile big at me at 3 am. I love it!!

Daily Routine

2009-05-29T10:23:00.000-07:00

A week and 2 days later and things couldn't be better. I can't believe that my little boy has been born for a little over a week now. He's so much fun especially when he's awake. I love every little thing about him. He has adjusted very well in these last few days. He sleeps good and nurses even better. We begin our daily routine at 7:30 a.m. when I have to take the kids to school now that hubby returned to work. Since Luciano's last feeding is usually around 4-5 a.m. he stays asleep until we get back around 8:30 a.m. Then after getting home it's diaper & feeding time. After he's finished we stare at each other for about a half an hour. Then about almost 10:00 he falls asleep for about 3 hours. When he wakes up we play for about 10-15 mins before feeding and then another diaper change. After that he stays up for about an hour and before going back to sleep there's another diaper change. I usually fall asleep at that time for about another 3 hours to catch up. Before we pick up the kids from school we do a quick feeding and another diaper change. One thing that Luciano does a lot is shart. Sometimes after I change his diaper he sharts and I have do another diaper change.

Anyways, after getting home we finish up on feeding and he'll stay up and Elise will play with him for a little bit. He'll go back to sleep until after dinner and we'll do 2 more feeding before the end of the night is over. During the middle of the night he'll have 1 feeding and that's usually around 4-5 a.m. So I have no complaints about little one he's doing great!

This picture was taken last Sat. and it's my favorite.

He's Finally Here!!!

2009-05-23T17:49:00.000-07:00

LC is finally here. He was born 5/20/2009 @ 11:33 p.m. weighing in at 6 lbs .06 oz & 19 inches long. Labor was fairly easy up until the last hour where I gave into the epi 20 mins before he was born. We were sent home twice and I wasn't admitted until my water had finally broke at 9:50 p.m. I will post a more detail story when I regain some energy back. Overall, little man is doing great and breastfeeding is going great. The last 24 hrs we've been doing good on sleeping and feeding...woohoo!

Enjoy my little rockstar!!

40w4d and Finally Some Progress

2009-05-20T03:38:00.000-07:00

Well, since early Sun morning I've been having some contractions, but not strong enough nor close enough to go to L&D. As of yesterday my back has been killing me and my contractions have gotten closer. Before midnight they have been every 15-20 mins apart. Since 1:27 am they were every 15 mins apart on the dot. It's now 3:41 am and my last 4 contractions have been 10 mins apart. So, I do believe it's time to have this baby!!

Thinking back to the beginning I can't believe have blessed we were to get pregnant. It's been a long journey and I do wished that I had started this blog way back when I learned that I had PCOS and struggling.

Back in Aug. before we found out about our BFP we had something terrible happen to us. We were robbed. It was such an awful feeling to have someone take everything so important from you. That night hubby and I were talking and one thing he said to me was, if we can have a child then the things that were taken won't matter to him. Something good needs to come out of something bad, and it did! A week later I got my BFP and sure enough the things that once mattered are no longer in his mind.

Anyways, as of 3:10 am my contractions have been 8-10 mins apart. I was told to go to L&D when they're 10 mins apart for an hour and I think it's time. I'm going to get some last min things together and take a quick shower. I don't want to go in stinking :). I will keep you posted. Wish us luck!

I leave you with my last belly pic. It's kind of dark and my photo booth won't catch a bighter pic unless I turn on all the lights.

Come Out, Come Out Baby Cee

2009-05-13T11:00:00.001-07:00

First, here are a few pictures of us from our maternity session taken last month. We finally got to see them and they all came out so adorable and funny. Our niece has taken up photography and she takes really good pictures. We really loved all of them. She's such an amazing person that all she wants to do is take pictures of baby Cee when he's born. We had so much fun doing this. We had mostly his entire family watching the session. It did make it a lot easier for us to be more ourselves.

So as of now we're just waiting for baby Cee to born. I went in for my 39 wk this morning and my NMV told me I show no progress. I was disappointed to hear that because I swear I feel my cervix expanding. So with that bad news came with some really bad pains from her trying to reach my cervix. I have a very high cervix and she just couldn't reach the darn thing. I literally had tears coming out! She even started to flick on my cervix like it was nothing...OUCH! She did mention that she doesn't think that baby Cee will be coming out before due date. I have another NST next Wednesday so we will see what happens. I'm really hoping that I will go into labor on my own because I really don't want to be induced.

One more for fun, this is cousin Ruggerio, he's so much fun.

Pictures taken at 36w1d.

38w5d appt

2009-05-07T15:13:00.000-07:00

Today I went in to for my regular scheduled appt., but when I got there I found out that my MW had canceled all of her appts. I got rescheduled with a MD whom I've seen before when I was having TTC issues. Well, she did an u/s and did some measurements and found out that baby Cee is barely a little over 5 lbs. She wasn't too concern, but she does want me to come back tomorrow for a NST for more measurements. Other than that baby Cee looks good, still head down.

I know everything will be o.k. I just have to have faith in God that he will continue to look over him. My son was 6 lbs at 41w. so even if baby Cee barely reaches 6 lbs I'll be happy.

I also had my hospital tour today. It's a brand new hospital which open last month. The birthing rooms are large and so are the postpartum rooms, which is nice. The one thing that I didn't like was that I would need to go to triage before L&D. There they will monitor me for awhile before admitting me. I'm used to going into L&D and I was set to go.

They also told me since this is my 3rd pregnancy I would need to wait unitl my contractions are 10 mins apart before coming in. Glad to know this otherwise I probably would wait until they're 2-5 mins about before making my trip to the hospital. Sheesh by waiting 2-5 mins I'll probably make head line news...lady gives birth to a baby boy on Sunset Blvd. Imagine that?

Baby Shower

2009-05-05T09:28:00.000-07:00

I had my baby shower on Sunday. It was so fun to be with all the ladies in our family. The only ones that didn't show up was a few of my good friends. They were part of the bridal party and I was really was hoping that they would make it, but oh well that's another story I guess.

There was a lot of eating, drinking and some fun games played. I enjoyed every minute of it. My 2 sister in laws put the whole thing together. It was held at one of my SIL's house. They're simple gals so the set up was simple. The party lasted serveral hours so I was pretty tired at the end of the night. We received a lot of nice stuff. We did get all the big stuff we really needed. Baby Cee has clothes up to a year, so we're set for now.

Yesterday I separated all the clothes that baby Cee will be using and washed them. I also put all the big stuff that he will be using on one side of the room and the rest will go into storage. When he's ready for them we will start bring them out. So now all I need is for him to be born.

Officially On Maternity Leave.

2009-05-01T11:24:00.000-07:00

It feels good to not worry about going into work and dealing with the stress. These last few days I've been over stressed. I had to do a lot of follow ups and I needed to close some files. I barely had time to scratch my ass. Last week work gave me a surprised baby shower and it was so much fun. I got a lot of cute boy stuff. The minute I got home I took the tags off and washed them all. Hubby put up the bassinet and we set up all of the necessities that baby Cee is going to be using. I'm getting excited!!!

Well anyways I leave you with a belly shot. This was taken last weekend at 37w1d. I was getting ready for bed.

I Got An Early Surprise!

2009-04-15T09:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I had my appt with the GD dr and let's just say that it was a very surprised visit. First, my fasting test came out beautiful. My fasting was 88 and my 1 hr after was 120. The norm is suppose to be 90/120 so I passed with flying colors. Yesterday's appt was going to determine wheather or not I should be on Glyburide during the day or insulin at night. She reviewed my levels and my food diary and did say that some of my morning numbers are slightly elevated, but wasn't going to make a big deal out of it. With a control diet I should be fine she said. So, since yesterday's numbers were within the norm range she left it as is and said to take care. Oh how sweet is was to hear that I didn't need any meds.

O.k. well let me get to the surprise part of the appt. I got to see baby Cee once again and baby is measuring 4 lbs and 13 oz so far. Baby is in ready position. So, after a few seconds of measuring she spilled the beans even before I was able to tell her I didn't want to know the gender. Baby wasn't being shy at all and it was in plain view that....drum roll please...We're having a boy!!! A healthy baby boy. I really wanted to be surprised, but this is good enough for me. I had a little bit of tears rolling down my face, but all from happiness and joy.

Hubby was really excited and told me that he knew it. Now we can call baby Cee by his name instead of calling him by both girl and boy name. Yes we're kind of weird.

It's My 35/35

2009-04-11T13:02:00.000-07:00

Today I'm 35 weeks with 35 days left. How exciting!! I'll be a mommy...again soon. I've been thinking of this since the beginning of the week. Hubby is really excited and he said yesterday that he can't wait any longer. I don't blame him.

I didn't mention this on my last entry, but my midwife said if I were to go into labor they won't stop it. At this point the baby is ready go at any time. Last week I got to see baby Cee and he/she is in ready position and is looking good. Fluid looks good as well.

Time is really going to fly from this point on.

Disappointing Dr. Appt.

2009-04-08T09:02:00.000-07:00

Well yesterday I had my appt and I failed...again. My fasting at 8:30 came back 94 and my 1 hr after meal was 122. The norm for fasting is 90 and 1 hr after 120. Although I was only a few up they are going to treat me. So it's confirmed, I have Gestational Diabetes. When she was telling me this I teared up and all I wanted to do was bawl. I held it together and she told me to not stress over it. She told me to do another week of noting down my meals and numbers. I go back on the 14th for another test and to see what will be the next step. She did mentioned that there might be some discussion about having a little bit of insulin to control it.
Honestly, I don't want to have to go through that. I was telling hubby about this and all he was able to say to me was "don't to worry everyone gets it". Not to be mean but, hubby's words kind of bugged me. How can he say that? I was looking for some comfort and all he gave me was nothing. I started to cry and hung up on him. I spent the whole day just thinking about everything yesterday. My mind was so preoccupied that I didn't do much work. Now I have tons to do today.

Oh well, I know it's not the end of the world, but I do need to take care of this. My goal is to stick with this GD diet until I deliver baby Cee. This will help me and the baby now and me in the long run.

Baby Shower

2009-04-03T14:41:00.000-07:00

I just received a call from hubby to surprise me with some news. I'm having a "surprise" baby shower! His sisters, my wonderful sister-in-laws are throwing me one, but had to tell hubby to help schedule it for this month. The funny thing about all this is how hubby blurted it out to me. You see hubby can't keep a secret if his life depends on it. So, I'm not suppose to say anything, I need to act surprised. I have to admit it got me all teary eyed. I really wasn't expecting one from anyone. I had to talk hubby out of his idea of throwing one for me. Have you ever heard of the husband throwing a baby shower for his wife? I haven't! I had to explained how tacky (for me) it would be. After several talks about it we had decided to just do a welcome baby party. We were planning on doing this about a month 1/2 after baby Cee is born.
So now that I know about this baby shower I'm not sure about the welcome baby party. I don't want those that are going to be attending to think bad. I'm really sure it's going to be mainly the ladies in his family. I really would like everyone to meet baby Cee.

Oh well I guess we will decide once baby Cee arrives.

It's April and 6 weeks to go!!

2009-04-01T09:08:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy it's April!! I'm having a baby next month.

So this month is also my last month working. My last work day will be the 30th and then I'm off. I'll be taking a 2 week vacation then my disability will begin. I will be returning back to work sometime after Labor Day.
I'm also going to have a maternity session this month. One of our niece has taken up photography and she actually photographs for the women's professional soccer team. She takes really great pictures. She wants to expand her portfolio so she asked us.

Here's a little quick update of my pregnancy.

How far along: 33w4d
Total weight gain/loss: 1st tri lost 5 lbs, 2nd tri gained 10 lbs, 3rd tri (so far) gained 2 lbs.
Stretch marks: I think I might of found 2 little ones on my belly. With my other 2 pregnancies I only got them on my thighs and butt.
Sleep: In 1st tri my sleep wasn't good. I couldn't get comfortable at all. 2nd tri was heaven. I slept really good. Now, I'm back to not sleeping. I'm having nightmares!! I'm so tired that I feel it when I'm driving to work every morning.
Best moment this week: This week I would have to say watching baby Cee doing the worm inside. I use to feel his/her movement below my belly now it's all over.
Food cravings: Let's see it used to be chili cheese fries & nachos. Right now I haven't any.
Gender: Team Green
Belly button: I was looking at my belly button the other night and it's in, but pulling down.
Milestone: Going pass 32 weeks. Since my last pregnancy ended at 32 weeks due to preeclampsia I was worried that it might happen again.

I can't wait until you're born baby Cee. Daddy is so excited and he's more than ready for you. He predicts that you're a boy and he sometimes talks to you and calls you by the boy name we chose for you. Sister is also excited. Everyday she says hi to you and sends you kisses through my belly. Brother is also happy as well. He said that if you're a boy that he will show you how to skateboard.

You are going to be so loved by everyone!!

33w1d Bump Pic

2009-03-29T11:47:00.000-07:00

Not much of a difference, huh? Sometimes I feel that baby Cee is going to be at least 6 lbs. My son was 6 lbs on the dot and my daughter...well...she was 2 lbs. I think if she went full term she too would of probably been about 6 lbs. Oh how I wish I could find out how much baby weighs right now.

Anyways, can I share a secret? I'm kind of jealous of those moms-to-be with big bellies. I always wished for one. But I guess I shouldn't complain. As long as I have a healthy baby that's all that matters.

Well, have a wonderful Sunday. Hubby is suppose to do something for me for my birthday. So let's see.

A Revisit With An Old Friend

2009-03-26T15:45:00.000-07:00

So today I had my regular scheduled appt and another glucose fasting test. Well, my sugar level was elevated after the hour. I'm so disappointed! The blood work test came out 80, but my finger prick test came out 156. So guess who I have to bond with again? My old friend. Yes I'm back to pricking my damn fingers 3 times a day until I deliver baby Cee. I'm back to starving myself with the GD diet I have to follow. Oh my gosh...I'm hating it right now. I was so miserable on that diet. At the time when I planned out my meal plan I was really excited because I thought it was going to be good and most importantly, healthy. Well after a few weeks...no...after a few days I was crying because I couldn't take it. Hubby was so upset because he thought that being pregnant shouldn't involve losing weight. So, I guess I need to put on my big girl panties and suck it up. I have less than less than 7 weeks to go.

On the brighter side, I am now going in every 2 weeks until I hit 36 weeks. After that I will be seeing my midwife every week. Woohoo!!! I have all my appts set up until my due date now.

1st Baby Purchase

2009-03-14T19:26:00.000-07:00

I went to Babies R Us today and I made my biggest baby purchase today. I bought this 3-1 bassinet for baby Cee to be in for the first few months. This bassinet is pretty neat. It's a full-sized bassinet, moses basket and a changing table. It got a lot of great reviews so I'm sure I will be happy with it once baby Cee is in it.

We have decided to go with a bassinet because 1. our room isn't that big to fit a crib 2. we're only living at the in-law's for a short time (hopefully) and 3. I want to be able to move around from one room to another.

This bassinet is very lite and really cute. I can't wait to put it together already.

While I was at BRU I also bought some little outfits. Today's shopping was just baby. Baby Cee's wardrobe is expanding and I'm so happy!!! I was feeling a little bad for not being ready, but little by little I'm getting there. Next purchase is going to be the carseat and stroller.

A Quick Update On MY BHs

2009-03-11T16:18:00.001-07:00

So my midwife is not in clinic today, but I got a response back from a RN. This is what she wrote:

HELLO,
SUSAN IS NOT IN CLINIC TODAY.PLEASE GO TO L&D NOW FOR EVALUATION. LOCATED ON THE 2ND FLOOR. DO NOT WAIT FOR 3/26/2009 TO BE SEEN. HOPE EVERYTHING IS WELL.

PERPETUA B. RN
OBG DEPT

O.k. now this is not what I was expecting to do. I thought I would get an appt like tomorrow or something and she would check me out. As of now my BHs have subsided, so I think I'm going to wait and see. Now, if I was having constant pain all day then I would drop everything and go to L&D, but it was only this morning. Hopefully this was just my body telling me to take it easy and don't do so much.

Update On My Last Appt.

2009-03-11T10:09:00.000-07:00

So last week I went in to see a dr to discuss VBAC and I have to say that I wasted my time. First, we were 10 mins late because I didn't get out of the shower on time and it was raining too. After checking in we waited about an hour before they called us in. Then, we waited another 1/2 hr for the dr to come in. She did a quick review of my chart and a quick ultrasound. She was pretty brief with us. She basically asked if I knew anything on it and the risks and that was it. I asked her a couple of questions and she gave me 1 word answers. I was so upset! I guess this was her way of punishing us for being late. One other thing that I was told at this appt was that I had some traces of protein. She said it wasn't a big deal because it was less than 1.0. I guess, but if she had took a little longer in reviewing my chart she would of seen that my last pregnancy ended up with preeclampsia. I would at least think it should be a little of a big deal. Now that I know this I have to pay close attention to my body for any other signs.
Anyways, even with a not so good dr visit at least we got to see baby Cee which we weren't expecting. :)

In other news, I've been getting a lot of braxton hicks since Sunday. I've always known about braxton hicks, but never knew that I should call if I get 4 or more within an hour, which I was having. I don't know why, but I just thought it had something to do with me over doing it on house work. All day I kept feeling pressure on my pelvic almost like baby Cee was coming out. I told R about it and he made me sit and do nothing. Since we had his brothers over for a late lunch I almost felt bad for not doing anything in preparing lunch. It was a good thing that BIL's girlfriend was nice enough to clean up for me.
These last few days I've been feeling a little better, but this morning it has started up again. I'm keeping track of them to see how many I feel within the hour. Right now I've had 3 in 40 mins. Because I rather be safe than sorry I'll be calling my midwife in a little bit.

Bump Pic at 29 weeks

2009-02-28T16:15:00.000-08:00

Although I don't feel like I'm 29 weeks and I sure don't look like it either, I'm really glad that I am. I'm getting closer to meeting our little baby soon. It doesn't look much bigger than my last bump pic. Just 11 more weeks (or sooner) until baby Cee makes his or her grand entrance into the world.

P.S. Excuse the messy living room. :)

Moving Alone

2009-02-18T14:00:00.000-08:00

So I hit my 3rd tri this past Friday. I can't believe it!! The next few months are going to fly by so quickly. Next month I'll be going in every 2 weeks until I hit 36 wks. After that I'll be going in every week until baby cee is born.
On the 4th I'll be seeing a doc to discuss VBAC delivery. My c-section with daughter was so awful. My recovery was long and painful and I really don't want to go through it again, so I'm going to give it a try. I got my last medical record from previous doc and I'll be taking it with me on this appt.
I have to admit, I'm starting to feel a little nervous about going into labor. I've only experienced it once, 15 1/2 yrs ago. Daughter was prematured and I had to have an emergency c-section to save her life at 32 wk gestation.
Hubby keeps telling me to just have a c-section, but I don't think he understands. If only he can experience a c-section.
Anyways, I know it will be sucessful and I know that I'll be a much happier person after.

4D Ultrasound Pics @ 25w

2009-02-02T10:35:00.001-08:00

Awww...look at my little bambino or bambina. We did the 4D ultrasound on Saturday and I was just so amazed. Hubby, daughter and I got to spend 15 mins with our baby just watching his/her every move. Since we don't want to know the gender we told the tech to stay above the waist to avoid any exposure. It was a good thing too because baby Cee had his/her legs wide open.

We spent all day Saturday staring at the pictures and seeing the DVD movie we got. At one point we even got a huge smile from baby Cee. We're on cloud nine right now. I can't wait until baby Cee is here. I already want to grab and squeeze those chubby cheeks and arms.

24w2d Belly Pic

2009-01-27T09:35:00.001-08:00

I took a couple of belly shots last night. Now, does my belly really look like a basketball? I have noticed that my belly is starting to shape more round and a little pointy at the bottom. Last night hubby was tripping out because baby Cee was moving and you could see my belly bounce side to side. It was fun to watch. :)

Here's also the pic of the onesie I bought for baby Cee over the weekend. Isn't it cute? I love it! It says Party in my crib B.Y.O.B.

24 Weeks

2009-01-26T14:50:00.000-08:00

I turned 24w on Sat. I can't believe that this pregnancy is going so fast. This is what baby Cee looks like in my womb. I'm not sure if this is the exact position the baby is in, but if it is, then this explains why I get kicked so much on my cervix. This baby is having a ball doing it. Baby Cee has been moving so much these last few days. Hubby finally got to feel the baby kick and punch a few times. It was quite funny seeing his face expression. His eyes almost popped out of his sockets, but it was cute to see that.
This past weekend I did my first baby purchase. I bought a really cute and funny onesie and an outfit. Everyone loved the onesie. (I will post a pic of it tomorrow or later this week) It was a really nice feeling to browse around and picking out somethings. Daughter was with me and she just kept telling me to just buy blue. She really thinks that baby Cee is a boy. Last night she had me stand up and she felt my belly and stared at it and said "Yup, your belly is starting to look like a basketball, so that means you're having a boy mommy". How cute was that? She's my little miss know it all.

P.S. How do you like the new look? The colors of the dots are similar colors to our wedding scheme.

I Passed!!

2009-01-21T11:23:00.000-08:00

Yes! I passed my glucose fasting last Friday. I'm so happy! I have to take another test in March to make sure my levels are low. The standard range is 70-99 and I got 75. I'm also gaining weight, finally. I had lost 4 lbs at the beginning and now I'm up + 1. My midwife said I should only be gaining 1 1/2 -2 lbs a month.
As for baby, he/she has a good strong heartbeat and sounds good and my blood pressure is looking good too. Since I had preeclampsia with daughter she's keeping a close eye on me. Other than that I'm feeling pretty good, except for my sciatica. This has been hurting so bad that sometimes it's getting a little hard to deal with. My midwife offered some acupuncture treatments as part of my prenatal care, but I don't know. I've heard good things, but I'm scared. If it gets too bad then I might have to consider some treatments. Anyways, we'll see how it goes.

As for our move, we're finished. Moving sucks ass and to think that we will be doing this again at the end of the year. It's weird. I hear so much more at my in-law's house than I did at my old place. I was away from the busy streets and here I'm above a major busy street. Everything echos up and then I hear the shots from the police academy that's a little further up where I'm at. I think once I get use to the area I'll be o.k. and I'll get to sleep a little better.

Moving & Almost 22 Weeks.

2009-01-07T15:28:00.000-08:00

I cant' believe that I'm almost 22 weeks this Sat. Time as really flown by so quickly! Before I know it I will be holding our baby boy or girl. Hubby is getting really excited because now he can say that his baby is almost here. He's so super happy. I love watching him talk to my belly and sing the ABCs to the baby. Daughter is starting to talk to my belly and kissing it galore. She tells the baby that she loves him or her. She is really hoping for another brother.

As far as baby stuff we haven't even consider what theme we want for the baby. I'm on the safari theme bandwagon. I just love how it looks. I think we will determine all that once we move. We are in the process of moving into my in-laws until Oct or Nov. There's nobody living there because the in-laws went back to Italy for a long while. They been gone since May and won't (maybe) be returning sometime until the end of this year. Since we really don't have room for the baby where we are now, we thought this would be good for us to move in and stash some money away. The siblings and the in-laws agreed and they're all good with it. So, we are suppose to be completely moved out by next Thurs. I'm taking Thurs. & Fri off to do last minute stuff and do my final walk through. I'm kind of sad to leave because this place was our first apt. together also the place where hubby proposed to me. Aside of the good memories we had there and the good times we had with our neighbors who became really good friends, I really won't be missing anything. Daughter will miss the pool. She learned how to swim in the pool and always looks forward to the summer. Son is looking forward to the move. Only because there is a pro skater who is well known living in the apt complex that the in-laws own next to the house.

I'm hoping with this opportunity we will buy our first house soon after the baby is born. I'm really hoping. So here's to a new year and a fresh start.

2008-12-15T15:17:00.000-08:00

We had our big u/s today. We didn't find out the gender and hubby decided to not find out. It was hard for him, but he managed to hold it together. He is on cloud 9 right now. The baby is very active. The tech was having a hard time getting pics of the baby. She also was having a hard time with me. My bladder was so full she just couldn't go pass it. She had me pee 3 times during the procedure. It was funny though. She would tell me not to empty my bladder completely. I was only allowed to fill 1-2 cups at a time.

Well anyways the baby looks good and healthy. Baby is growing just fine.

18w2d.

1st Belly Pic

2008-12-02T11:03:00.000-08:00

This is such a bad pic. Since I don't have a camera anymore (it was stolen) I had to use my cell phone to take this picture. This was taken last night at 16w2d.
Over the weekend I also went out and bought a couple of maternity outfits. This is one of them, just the top though. Wearing the top yesterday made me really feel pregnant. A lot of my co-workers kept looking at me. Not everyone knows I'm pregnant. It was kind of funny to just see them looking down at my belly every so often when we're talking. I think I'm going to let them just wonder. It's funny!
In other news, I also started to feel the baby. At 15w2d I felt with my hand a very lite tap. Since then I'm feeling a lot more tap through out the day. Hubby can't wait until he can feel his baby's movements.

Happy Thanksgiving!!

2008-11-26T11:32:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving Day! Enjoy your time with your love ones and don't be ashame to stuff your face. I know I won't. I'm eating for 2!!

14w6d

2008-11-21T14:06:00.000-08:00

Today I had an appt and to my surprise I got another u/s. This time we got to see the baby move around like crazy. We still haven't heard the heartbeat, but I'll take an u/s over a doppler anyday.

The baby has grown so much within the last two weeks. The baby is measuring on time and my 1st tri screening all came out good. Next month I'm going to have the big u/s done on me. This one will be a more detailed u/s. If we want we can find out the gender of the baby that day. Hubby really wants to find out, but I don't. I want to be surprised just like I was with my other two. I hope he can wait because if he finds out he will NOT be able to keep it a secret, at least from me he won't.

Doesn't the baby look like he/she is ready to give you a big hug?

Tag I'm It.

2008-11-17T09:53:00.000-08:00

I was tagged!! JulyBride tagged me!

Here goes!

Rules:
1. Link to the person who tagged you.
2. Share 7 random and/or weird facts about you.
3. Tag 7 random people at the end, and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know they’ve been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.

1. When I was little I used to be a thumb sucker and an ear tugger. I've stopped the thumb sucking, but I'm still an ear tugger. I especially LOVE tugging on little kids ears.

2. I used to live in Manhattan, New York. Sometimes I wish I still lived there.

3. I love to laugh at commericals!!

4. I love acting silly with my children.

5. I'm an aunt to a 31 year old nephew (by marriage). I'm 33 years old.

6. Here's one that I thought about the other day. On my 22nd birthday my dad and half sisters decided to throw me a "surprise" birthday party. Well when I got the house I walked into a room full of strangers. My sisters needed an excuse to have a party at their home with their friends so they used me and my dad fell for it. I was so mad I decided to get drunk and caused a commotion.

7. I'm afraid of dying. :(

I tag Linda, Buttercup16, Be Still and Know, Fish Baby, Gee & A.

I tagged only 6 because I don't know that many bloggers yet.

New U/S Pic

2008-11-06T14:09:00.000-08:00

This was taken today at my appt. We thought we were going to hear the heartbeat, but instead we got to see our peanut again. Look at how much the baby has grown in 4 wks. Hubby was so amazed at how much his bambino or bambina has grown. He was ohhhing and ahhhing the whole time.

Almost Done!

2008-10-27T10:12:00.000-07:00

Next week I'll be 12w and I'm so happy. These last couple of months have been so nerve recking beginning with my 2ww up until now. I've been careful at every little single thing I do. I sit slowly, I get up slowly, I walk slower I even turn slowly in my sleep and I don't lift anything less than 2 lbs heavy. I know I'm over doing it, but you can never be too safe. Now that I'm approaching the end of my 1st tri I'm so relieved.
Next week we get to hear the heartbeat for the first time, I can't wait!!

Meet The Peanut.

2008-10-10T10:36:00.001-07:00

This is the new addition to our family. I made an appt to see a dr yesterday and I got lucky. I just couldn't wait until Monday and besides the N.P has been out for over a week and I didn't want another cancellation. I saw a sweet and great dr yesterday who did everything that she was suppose to do. At the end she did an u/s and we got to see our baby's heartbeat beat away. It was freakin' amazing!! Hubby was so stoked and so excited that he didn't stop smiling until he fell asleep last night.
According to my u/s and LMP the baby measured yesterday at 8w5d. This is not definite, but for now I'm a week ahead.

Other news, I was told that my 3 hour glucose tolerance test came up normal, NORMAL...wtf!?!?! I was so upset to find out that I went through torture for nothing. She told me to stop poking myself. My sugar levels are where they're suppose to be. What a relief. Because of this diet I was on I was feeling so hungry and nauseous. I just couldn't stand the feeling I was going through. I haven't gained any weight because of this. Now, although I still need to be careful, I could eat a well balanced meal without too much restriction.

Double Argh!!

2008-10-06T13:40:00.000-07:00

I just lost my entry for today, so really quick, no dr appt today. Friday they cancelled on us so we go in next Monday. I'm home sick today and I feel really crappy. I'm also hungry.
I have no more energy to re-do my entry. It got deleted right when I hit publish post.
Oh well I hope I feel better tomorrow.

Is It Monday Yet?

2008-10-02T11:41:00.000-07:00

I can't wait. Monday is our big u/s and we're excited. I get to meet my midwife and see our little baby. After our u/s we will be telling our family and friends. Everyone is questioning us and we keep changing the subject. Oh what a relief it will be!

Today is my son's 15th birthday. We woke him up by saying happy birthday and that made his morning. I can't believe how fast he has grown. For his celebration we are doing him a paintball party this Sat. We have a big group playing so it should be fun for him. I'll be in the sideline cheering him on.

My Baby Sweet Pea

2008-10-01T08:44:00.000-07:00

Baby Cee is the size of a sweet pea right now. This is what's going on with baby right now.

Growing like crazy, baby is starting to sprout eyes, ears, nose, cheeks and chin. Those little hands and feet- still webbed like paddles- might wiggle by week's end, the heart is beating (almost twice as fast as yours!) and blood is starting to circulate.

My New Toy

2008-09-27T08:20:00.000-07:00

Well here it is, my new toy for the next serveral months. I attended my nutrition class yesterday and I really thought is was going to be boring. I was wrong. This class was very informative and I really loved it. By the time the class was done I couldn't believe that 2 hours had already pasted. They taught us how to read nut. labels and what to look for. Since this has never been an issue for me I never bothered to flip the box over.

I made my own meal plan and I'm really happy how I planned my serverings and food groups. I have to eat every 2 hours and lots of water. The one sacrifice I have to make during this pregnancy is no fruit juices. I'm not a big junkie drinker, but I love my V8 Splash and Ocean Spray drinks. So for the mean while no fruit drinks. One other thing that's a big no no is pastries. OMG, hubby is Italian and when we have family gatherings they always have different kinds of yummy pastries to go along with your espresso. Oh the sadness, but it's all for a good cause, our baby's health.

Oh well as hungry as I am already I'm confident that I will adjust very well.

I Don't Have GD, But...

2008-09-22T13:54:00.000-07:00

...I do have Impaired Glucose Tolerance. I'm quite not diabetic, but in it's beginning stages. I was poked every hour on the hour. The nurses were so mean. They straight jabbed the needles in my arms and left me bruised. This is my right arm right now. My left arm isn't too bad. The bruising has gotten better, but it still kind of hurts.

I do need to attend my class still this Friday and they will be providing me with a glucose monitor. They will show me how to check my sugar levels and they will also show me how to make healthier choices in my eating habits. Argh! The one thing I'm glad is that I do not have to take insulin to control it.

Maybe this will help me in the long run.

I Failed!!

2008-09-19T16:03:00.000-07:00

Yup I failed my 1 hr glucose tolerance test. I have to go back in tomorrow at 8 am to do the 3 hr test. I'm really hoping that I past. I'm not sure why my sugar is elevated. The nurse did say that it's probably because I have PCOS. She set me up for a nutrition class for next Friday. After that I have to go and see her to go over my results. This sucks!! Let's see how tomorrow goes.
Some other minor things came up, but was told to not skip taking my PNVs.

The Works

2008-09-16T15:12:00.000-07:00

Today I had an appt with the nurse to start my PN stuff. I had the works done on me. I filled out ton of paperwork, blood work, glucose tolerance test & POAS as well. I won't know the results from my blood work until tomorrow or Thurs. I have my very first PN dr visit Oct. 6th. This day I will have an u/s done and we will get to see our baby. I'm so excited!! Since they go by my first day of my last AF, I'm supposably 5w 1d today. We'll see what the u/s shows.

Today's Nurse Visit.

2008-09-12T13:39:00.000-07:00

This morning I went for a nurse visit. They needed to confirm my test before giving me my first dr appt. I was kind of nervous. After 5 mins she called my name and told me that my test come up positive and I smiled big. The next step for me is to start paperwork. I go in on the 16th and she told me that it will take about an hour and also no eating. They will be drawing blood that day as well. After that, I'm done and she will give me my 1st dr appt. How exciting!!

As for pregnancy symptom I've been having heartburn, gagging, sore nipples & mild cramping. One other thing I'm going through is diarrhea. I know TMI, but I had this all last weekend and now it's starting up again today. I was told this is common.
This morning I woke up at 4:30 and had the most awful heartburn. I've been having heartburn for some time now, but I just thought it was my acid reflux acting up again. I took some tums and it gave me nausea. By the time I had to get up and get ready I wasn't feel too good. Yesterday I gagged so bad when I was brushing my teeth that I almost had to throw up. I held it and stood in front of the fan to calm me down a bit. It happened again this morning.

I have to say even though I have 2 children both pregnancies were completely different. I feel that this one is going to be very different.
Since I will be 4 weeks tomorrow this is what our bambino is going through now.

Week 4: The embryonic period begins
The fourth week marks the beginning of the embryonic period, when the baby's brain, spinal cord, heart and other organs begin to form. Your baby is now 1/25 of an inch long.
The embryo is now made of three layers. The top layer — the ectoderm — will give rise to a groove along the midline of your baby's body. This will become the neural tube, where your baby's brain, spinal cord, spinal nerves and backbone will develop.
Your baby's heart and a primitive circulatory system will form in the middle layer of cells — the mesoderm. This layer of cells will also serve as the foundation for your baby's bones, muscles, kidneys and much of the reproductive system.
The inner layer of cells — the endoderm — will become a simple tube lined with mucous membranes. Your baby's lungs, intestines and bladder will develop here.

So it's a BFP!!!!

2008-09-11T11:41:00.001-07:00

All this obsessing paid off. I can't believe that I got my BFP. I can't begin to tell you all the things I was doing since the beginning of the year for this to happen. I drank green tea, Fertiltea, MACA root, stopped drinking caffeine, PreSeed & Mucinex and none of these worked. It was the prayers!!

EDD = May 23, 2009
3w5d

12 DPO and a BF...

2008-09-11T08:45:00.000-07:00

...what do you think?

11 DPO

2008-09-10T13:21:00.000-07:00

So today is 11 DPO and my temp this morning was 98.16. I think after daughter's soccer practice tonight I will held over to the .99 cent store. I'm going to buy a couple to HPTs to test first thing in the morning with FMU. Hopefully I get to see that BFP, something I've been waiting to see. Wish me luck!!

10 DPO

2008-09-09T14:29:00.000-07:00

Today my temp was 97.92 so not bad. Last night hubby asked me if it was too early to test and I told him that it could be. After a few minutes he then said "for shits and giggles let buy one". As anxious as I am to know if we did conceive I was nervous to go and buy one. After I made dinner we both decided to just screw it and wait until I'm 12 DPO. I was o.k. with that I think I could wait until Thurs.

Today symptoms are more tenderness on my boobies and my left side nipple was a little tender to the touch. I was in the shower this morning and it kind of hurt when the water was hitting my boob. I was really hungry this morning that I thought I was going to throw up. I don't know what to make of this. I usually eat breakfast at work around 10ish and it was about 7:30 when I was feeling this.
Let see, oh skin break out. I've been searching on the web early pregnancy symptoms to compare and I've been reading a lot about skin break outs. I have noticed that I've been waking up with one or two on my face lately. I don't know if this is a pregnancy sign, but I do know it's an AF one.
One more thing, I'm so sleepy and I want something sweet.

Oh I really hope AF stays away this time.

9 DPO

2008-09-08T15:21:00.000-07:00

Today I thought I was 10 DPO, but FF moved my O date to the next day which puts me at 9 DPO. What happened was that I have 2 charts and 1 had something that the other didn't have. I didn't add my CM on CD 22 on my FF chart like I did on my MMC chart. This also brought up my coverline to 97.16. I'm o.k. with it, it's better than before which wa 96.92 or something like that. No big deal at least I'm not like 3 DPO again.

My weekend was pretty good. My temps are still high and on Saturday it was even higher, 98.24. I had to rub my eyes to look clearer. All day I kept thinking could this be a sign or what. I spent all day staring at my chart and analyzing it. I know it's still too early to know, but this is torture. Today's temp was a bit lower at 97.91. Hopefully my temp will go back up tomorrow.

As far as my cramping goes, I had a lot Friday and Saturday. My boobies hurt more than last week. It's just around the boobs not the nipples.

Nothing new as far as possible early pregnancy symptoms, nada. I do feel a little more tired than usual. This could be a number of things so I wouldn't make this a definite symptoms for me.

Here's a look at what my chart looks like today.

7 DPO

2008-09-05T12:25:00.000-07:00

Today's temp was 97.77, a little drop, but I don't think that's a big deal. I'm trying not to get my hopes to high because then I'll be crushed. As days go by hubby is asking me what's my temp. Before he really didn't and now since I clearly O'd he's getting a little excited. He keeps asking me when can I test. He's dying to know if we conceived or not. He really want his little one. He raised daughter since she was in diapers, but it's not the same. He loves her to death and she's daddy's little girl. He just wants his own. He' s waiting patiently to experience fatherhood from the begining.

Today I'm feeling a lot of slight cramping below my belly. Almost like a pulling sensation. Boobies are still a little tender.
It's weird I have 2 children and I can't remember for the life of me my early pregnancy symptoms. I do remember having implantation bleeding for both, severe hunger and extreme boob pains. I'm not experiencing any of the above, but just one. Oh well let's see how this will turn out. I hope it turns out good after my 2 ww is over.

Since it's Friday and I probably won't post an entry until Monday, pray that I have the strength to hold out from POAS.
Happy Weekend!!

6 DPO

2008-09-04T14:45:00.000-07:00

Today is 6 DPO and today's temp was 97.90. The highest for this cycle. I was kind of excited to get to bed and go to sleep because I was dying to temp in the morning.
I have to say that charting has completely taken over my life. I say this because I can not live without my BBT. A few months ago I lost my BBT and I was panicking. I went to CVS and bought another one. Well about a month or so later I found it and I was glad because now I have 2, just in case. The other night I woke to temp and after went to the bathroom. Well within that time I lost my BBT. I couldn't find it and I gave up looking for it. Hubby reminded me that I had an extra one and I was like "YES!" I know I'm a dork, but I can't help it.
Well anyways, I can't start my day without first login into my FF account. I have to add my info of the day and analyze my chart. I spend a good 2 hours doing this. I waste so much time that I get backed up at work. Sick...huh?

As of today I am not experiencing any early pregnancy symptoms, but I try to pay close attention to my body.
For the last few days I've been feeling slight tenderness on my boobies. Not to the touch, but almost sore on the side and top of them. I have been getting slight cramping as if AF was getting ready to show her face. Other than that nothing really definite like nausea.
Lets see what tomorrow brings.

1st entry

2008-09-03T10:43:00.000-07:00

So this is my first entry on my ttc blog. I decided to create a blog because sometime I feel that writing is the best therapy, good or bad. So this will help me put down my thoughts and frustrations on this journey of mine to ttc.
So let me start to introduce myself, My name is Gee (my blog name), I'm in my early 30's & I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome.
I'm married to a wonderful, kind hearted and the most beautiful man in the world. We've been married for a little over a year now, but we've been together since 2002. I also have 2 children from previous relationship. I have a teenage son who will be turning 15 next month and a daughter who's 7 years old.
My husband and I are in our 9 months of ttc our first bambino together. Late last year I was diagnosed with PCOS and 'til this day we haven't been able to get a BFP. We've been ttc since Jan, actively, but really for over 3 years. Jan. 2005 at 6w I miscarried. We had gone to our first doc appt and had our first u/s, but a week before we went in I started to spot. She did an u/s and she said that I had more blood in my cervix. She was a little concern and did explained to us what might happen within the next few days.
On New Years Day I miscarried. Having a m/c was the most devastating thing we had to go through. We had decided to let nature take it's course and not stress and try again. Well 3 yrs later with nothing I started to wonder why. I saw 3 different drs. My first dr appt she ran test and told me the news. She started me on Provera to induce my cycles. Well after a few rounds my cycles were acting weird and I stopped it. I went back and saw dr # 2 and he recommended me to chart my cycles. Since then I started to chart this Jan. I started charting with fertility friend and 'til this day I've only had 4 cycles. My longest cycle this year lasted 92 days without ovulation. That was hard for me because I just felt so frustrated and wanted to get it over with. But I have to say that every cycle is looking better and some shorter. My current cycle looks like this.

I'm currently 5 DPO and I'm officially in the 2ww. I'm suppose to wait until 09/17 to test, but if my temps stay high and keep getting higher I will test on Sun. I know that's early, but I see a lot of ladies from different chat boards I hang out in who test as early as 9 DPO and get a +.

Well anyways, I hope to keep this blog going.
So I as go through this journey I hope to find readers that will keep coming back. Here's to a new blog and a BFP...hopefully.